So, quick update, I just finished talking with Alex about the situation that I, him and we? I guess maybe I shouldn't say we cause we aren't in it anymore.
It went well. It was nice seeing him. It really was enjoyable. Sure there was the initial cringe. The need to go back to safety. Out of sight out of mind right? But as we started talking more about how I felt and what happened I can say I felt a little bit of relief
We are not a little item anymore, and that's okay.
We will not date, and that's okay to.
We are really good friends and that's the best thing right now.
He said something along the lines of he missed having me to talk to and hanging around the fig and I felt like I wasn't replaced.
I was not abandoned and I was not replaced.
Don't mistake this as a recovery. It's progress but I still limited our tribe together to less than an hour and I'll continue to do that.
I'm not ready just yet.
I will still limit my time at the fig as the idea of them still stings a bit and I can still feel the sadness and I'm not going to push this to move faster than it should. If it take a few weeks to heal I will wait, if it takes two years to heal (like my last relationship, that I will touch on eventually) I will wait. And he's okay with that too.
Talking to my friend felt good today so I will leave it at that for now.
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