It's almost a year later. I'm intoxicated as I write this but I promise the feelings are nothing short of real. I love you so much. I've found a boyfriend. It's not Alex. I'm so glad it wasn't him. I'm so glad it wasn't anyone but Mel. He's everything I could ask for. It's off, reading post about old post about Alex, I wanted him so bad you know. I probably would've treated it like my last relationship to, bending over to please him no matter the cost. Not this one though, he's really everything I could've asked for. Mel is loving and caring and kind. I can say no to sex and not feel guilty. He will wake me up in the morning with kisses snd tell me I'm beautiful. I don't feel line I constantly have to compete with other girls body. Maybe if I had bigger Boobs or bigger ass or if I was prettier. I've never had to feel that with him cause he makes me feel like his princess and it's really good after everything I've been through to find someone who loves me unconditionally. I want him forever, never let him go. He's so good to me even when I have my.episodes of jealousy or jumping to conclusions. I really don't mean to, it's like one moment I'm okay and the next something triggers and I'm some shity human being who deserves to die. But he still wraps his arms around me and kisses me good night. I am happy. I am well. I am his girlfriend and I couldn't ask for more
